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Alright. Here I am. HUrdling. One by one.

But i realise I really dun whine that much liao. Seriously. Before this, i think if i face this kinda shit, i would have complained and complained.

Now i just see it as part of the journey.

Cos maybe now that you have a goal, this is just another obstacle. Maybe I want to lead, and to show a good example.

1. I din get the bursary. I don't actually need it. There's others who really dun have enough to eat. I still $ to buy noodles. And I have entrepreneurial spirit. How stupid could I HAVE BEEN to say that my strongest trait is that. If i am one of them, i would think.. hmm. he has that. He would find a way. haha. Well, you're right. I will find my way. God bless those who got it. Hope those bursaries fall into the hands of those who really need it.

2. I lost my part time job after 2 weeks. Well, i am not that good, i realised. Argh. Despite the years of experience, I still am not good enough. Well, I accept that. Cos they dun have enough time to guide me. They can't afford to dingdongdingdong with me. Keep asking me to edit, though my attitude is that I will edit it till you're happy. Well, too bad. Gotta open my eyes wider. Edms are not as simple as they look. This stint of 'internship' just taught me that there's always another hill higher than this hill. I thank god that he gave me this opportunity to work with them for 2 weeks.

3. there's some problem with the client in China. Well, the site might have been blocked by the Great Firewall of China. ok. I will solve that issue. No problem. It's not a big deal.

4. i see starting up my own company as a big leap. The university has really poisoned our minds. Struggling to be more disciplined. I see my partner's eyes and I grit my teeth, keep my head up high, and push on. I want to make it. Though my gut is pulling away. Argh. COME ON.

Seems that if u have a goal, u dun spend that much time whining about a lost. You move on almost immediately. I didn't feel anything. Just a little disappointed. Then i immediately move on.

Like Adam Khoo once said, if u're not in charge, act that u're in charge. Once you're there, you will realise that acting acting will become real liao. The current will push you higher.

I think i once act strong, and try not to whine. Now i've indeed became strong, and I don't even whine anymore. Instead I immediately do the following 3 things within 15 minutes of the above news. All 3 came together. haha. In my mailbox.

1. I escalated the issue. I sent an email to the Student service office, CCed the Dean of biz sch. See if i can appeal.

2. I immediately emailed Jobsdb and smsed the other guy from another company.

3. I emailed the administrator and came up with a temporary solution.

And while i am doing all this, I have you in my mind. Charlene. You. You're my anchor when the waves want to wash me away.

Perhaps I would not understand, the feeling of being thrown into an unknown foreign country, feeling lonely, and devastated and disgusted by the culture etc. When i came to Singapore, I knew exactly what i was in for. Cos I knew i wanted to come here since i was 13. When i looked directly into the eyes of the interviewers for NOC, and told them, Please send me anywhere except Shanghai, I really meant it. Cos i have no idea what I was in for. if i knew.

Well, Singapore is home to me now. Shanghai. Hmm. Still gives me the tingles and sweet sweet memories.

Perhaps i would not understand.

But I do know that we have the power to make a decision. To change our mindset. To leverage on our position. Cos God has his plans. We just have to have the patience and courage to face it. To think out of the box. To lead. Then can we enjoy our positions. New York. Many aspire to go there. Many more died to be there. America. The great country. For me, i can't wait to see what it's like.

You still have 2 more years there. Let's make it a memorable journey. One that you can brag to our grandchildren about. Once in a lifetime journey. Cos this period of time will never occur again. This situation. This unique position of yours.

It's difficult to part with home. Especially you have such a loving family, lovely friends, and me here in Singapore. But fret now. We will still be here when u come back. We will be here to give you emotional support. To give you skype-support. Whine to us. Complain to us. We will be there.

I think the eagle thingy in your blog is pretty cool. That was my bloody idea. Argh. Seems that you have acquired the skill of stealing ideas, from me.

9 months is not a short time. It's not long either. Cut it to 3 segments, and you have 3 months for each segment. it's such a short time.
Look forward to Christmas. By the time you're back, you have 3 months before X'mas, before you enjoy your winter break. After winter break, start looking forward to coming home in May. It's so short la.

Just spoilt one shirt from China, the pants which i tailored too was too loose. Sigh. Lost inches off the waist recently, despite of all the good food that went in. Haha.

Continue to dream. Don't dwell into the pits of loneliness and self-pity. Cos we're here. Always.

Dream big. Set goals. Cos when we don't have goals, we are drifting. Just like me. Before I met you.